Three months have passed quickly, quicker than one might imagine when there is seemingly more time. One wise person told me that the time is the same, just how one uses it is different. This is of course true. I found myself wishing just a couple days ago that I had more time. Crazy!! I of course still have lots of things that I want to get done and more ideas than I can ever actually accomplish. I am not missing my work as a nurse and yet I am grieving the loss of it. I have spent my life caring for others and although I no longer have the stamina for the work, I do miss the connection that I had with my clients. So now I go ahead with trying to figure out how to be of service. The music feels like it is there to serve others and so I will continue to write songs that I trust will connect with people.
I spent the summer in nature with hawks and other animals making themselves known to me. My wife and I spent time reading books, fishing and relaxing. I spent part of most days hiking, finding my ground as I walked among the grasses and trees of the prairies. This transition time has been challenging with unexpected emotions coming to visit and a sense of being out of balance. I have made a decision not to strive as I had been with my music. I am going to allow it more space and give more time to creativity of all kinds. This feels like a good use of my time. I also feel it is a time to spend writing both songs and stories.
I had a healer friend ask me, What do you want? This can be a difficult question to answer, especially when there is more freedom. What if I ask for the wrong thing? What if I make the wrong decision? I encourage you to think about what you might want especially when it comes to your own creativity. We all have something to offer, as we are all unique individuals.
Until next time !!
Yours in creativity and music,