Growing up folks had a difficult time with my last name so they opted for groundhog. Well, as a child growing up this wasn’t very complimentary. I realize now that they do tell us if spring is coming fast or slow which seems to me to be a helpful skill. And here we are in Saskatchewan in the middle of a not so nice winter, extreme cold, rain and ice. This is a rare combination for us. We usually deal with extreme cold but don’t have it mixed in with ice or rain. I have been very grumpy about this as I chose to work as a home care nurse for the last couple years of my nursing life. Until the cold of Christmas, I was feeling very happy to go to client’s homes and help them. Perhaps what I am relearning, is that there are often unexpected things that come along with what seems to be our path. Perhaps I should have realized bad weather would be part of the job, which mostly I did, what I didn’t see was my own aversion to it. Walking on super icy walkways I was taken back to 1993 when I broke my leg and was off work for 5 months while grieving the end of my marriage. I was feeling my age last week as I worried about breaking my hip. I did fall, tho not at work, I was on my way to my piano lesson. I didn’t break or twist anything, just came out of it stiff and sore and very rattled. It took an hour for my nervous system to settle. My piano teacher sat with me, chatted, brought me water. Time is what I needed. Time.
I’m not entirely sure where this story takes us except to say that we are asked to deal with the unexpected. I have been asked to play a few shows in the next couple months and I am happy and anxious at the same time. Funny that I forget the nervous part about performing when I have been away from it for a couple of months. I want to share my music and so I need to allow myself the time that it takes to practice, to choose the best songs etc. It also takes time and space to let the creativity flow as well. I am going to my brothers farm next week to take some time to write. I realize that the songs deserve time and space as well.
May you find the time and space for creativity in your own life.
Yours in creativity and music,