I realized a few weeks ago that transitioning out of my life as a nurse was going to be a little more challenging then I thought. I will be retiring July 1st. I have been so tired from my work as a nurse that I had assumed that there would be no issues with this change. Then I realized that I have a lot of pride in what I have done in my nursing life and that I wanted to leave it in a thoughtful way. I have come at this in a couple of ways. Firstly, I went to a counsellor to get some help with the emotional work of transitioning to a new type of life. Then I approached a couple of nursing educators and offered to talk about my experience as a nurse, both from a practical point of view and from an emotional and spiritual one. I know that I will have enough work to fill my days as long as I keep working as a musician and I will need structure self-discipline. It is quite a different life then the one I have now where my nursing work still occupies ¾ of my time. I will also get to choose what else I want to fill my life with. Freedom is great and it can be intimidating.
I am feeling grateful that I realized that I would need some time to transition. Time, this thing we want to rush. We want it to be what we want it to be and yet it continues on with no say from us. My gift to myself is that I have realized the importance of giving myself the time I need, for transition and for what I want to do now. I am grateful that I have this opportunity. It is a gift that I am not too old to write songs, write stories, travel and enjoy the opportunities that I have! Thank you Universe. I hope for you that you can give yourself the time that you need for things that you love!
Yours in Creativity and Music,